Midnight in Suwon - Day 45

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=mkKlUgRfHAg


Hello midnight today..


Just got back home after such long day


Had to rush for work in the morning..


I don't know why but as I was sleeping I kept waking up every two hours..


Maybe it was symptom because I was drunk..


Had a sandwich mom made and left for work.


As I was reaching... I thought to myself... it is okay.. it is okay to make mistakes..


I have to face all those people I faced ytd at dinner


but is okay


I'm fine..


God...Please give me more mistakes ... so there are more things I can learn..


I do not think this meeting is the end of my relattionship deal in my whole life.. It doesn't mean I am giving up making good relations with them but just that I do not want to let myself down after yesterday.. I want to be more courageous... to get more mistakes and experiences..


Calmed myself down and reached work.


Had long hours of work all the way and today didn't really make me feel like I was working as there were really a few people today.. Halfway through... the boss started telling other people to remember some woman with pink bag and stuff to other colleagues.. I didn't really pay attention to it as he wasn't saying it to me. Just a while later the boss said my name in the walkie-talkie asking me whether am I aware of what the woman wears and what her bag's color is. Maybe she is some VIP.
I told him I do not know.. and he replied me saying things like... dont bullshit with him back later on saying that you didn't hear coming it from me and stuff... Surprisingly, even after hearing some vulgars.. I wasn't surprised .. I was rather calm and just replied yes.. Then I thought... I see why he was saying so.. Everytime I was busy dealing with kids and when the boss was talking to me finding me, shouting my name few times at the walkie-talkie.. I always got mad and shouted on the phone saying I can't hear you. I didn't use single vulgar but it was clear that I was rashed. I realised what I've done... and thught I really shouldn't get angry anymore..


If i get angry because of this and that.. then when do i become that nice, accepting person... Every single time is the place for such. FInd no excuses on that Youngsub..


As I finished work, I went out with the groups of guys.. It was pretty weird. I realised I can't hang along well with like a group of guys.. especially if they were new to me.. It's really weird.. I can hangout so well in SG with my school friends but now I feel hmm awkward.. when i'm here.. I missthem.. Shawn..Wei yang.. all those friends..


I got to the gym... exercised harder than usual days as I can't gym tmr as the gym would have been closed when I'm back from work.


Reached home, had another fulfilling dinner.. and typing my story of the day...


Gotta sleep early today too, to prepare myself for tmr's work.


Hope tomorrow's me, would be, more pleasant, not rashed, and more interested to know people..


Byebye