Hi midnight.
Today was another day full of actions.
Woke up in the morning with a wake call from mom. Mom woke up early in the morning around 6:30 as she wanted to prepare breakfast for me. She prepared the dish that I had to eat as I was building up my body. It was steak with two fried eggs just for breakfast. It was a heavy one but I didn't mind having them as long as I can grow my muscles. I left home when it was around 7:40. I wouldn't be late as I had bike now to travel to the nearest mrt station. It was about 5-10 mins of bike journey through the dawn's winds... Nobody at this time.. the only one driving this street.. I go past the winds..the only one on this street is me and my shadow..
Reached the Hwaseo train station and I had a sudden urge for a bowel movement. I stopped by at the toilet in the station. One great thing about Korea's train stops were that there was trash can, convenience store, and toilets. I quickly moved on to take the train and allowed myself to travel under the music. I soon reached the venue and once again! when I reached the venue, my stomach asked for another vowel movement. Maybe it was because I ate too much this morning. Had a several vowel movements along the way and reached my workplace around 9:35. I still wasn't late so much. I was like the third last to reach today. However, the other girl came even later than I did! I was given a choice to choose which station I would want to go for! It was really an essential one deciding whether I will be able to gym after this or not as one of the two station was somewhat not a favourable one. That unfavourable one was the one I did the last week. The pool was made of wood and as you walk it gives you an effect of massaging along the way. Without a single hesitation, I chose the other one which has balls in the pool. It was much of a better job. When children come to my station, all I need to do is to give them the sticker I have which illustrates the shape of sponge that they need to collect and present to me, and I just check whether they can pronounce those figures properly and that was it.
Job went smoothly. There was fewer people compared to the other time and this time was kids coming in groups, like a group of kindergarten kids. It was much better to control as I could just talk to the kids using the giga-phone and giving them the instruction only a time, unlike the other day where I had to tell each kids on what to do.
It is always great feeling to be loved, liked and praised by the kids or their parents. One time, the dad of the five kids came up to me and told me that his kids love this place the most so asked me to come up with some other games so they can have longer time with me. I was such glad to hear praises like that.
As work was ending, the leader asked me whether I can help him to do vacuum cleaning for the whole place, 30mins before the end of the job. I told him I would and brought out the vacuum cleaner and the long rope to plug in the vacuum cleaner. Oh ya.. before this.. I was given a short break of about 10 mins, to rest in the office. As I was resting in the office, a girl colleageu came in the room and I like usual stood up to greet her, as I wanted to show all respects and not make any troubles with the girls. I had this thought in mind the last night..that I should change... I shouldn't talk to girls so often..stop being so friendly to them...and stop making female friends.. I began to realise myself cliquing more with female friends and the worse thing was that I was forgetting how to make friends with guys and began to avoid guy friends. Also, I did not want to be involved in any kind of relationship thing.. I do not want to be involved in such again... I wouldn't know what would happen when a girl appears and I get infatuated with her.. I wouldn't know what would happen then.. Thus, I thought that when I go for work today, I should just greet them nicely giving all respects and just talk to the guys. However when the girl came in... She began talking to me. She was really pretty. hmm.. she wasn't having so much make-ups like usual Korean girls but she was pretty. She was having white skin long hair, and just pretty face with a height about me. Actually she was the prettiest I saw in this center since the time I worked in here. She asked me of my age and I found out that she was younger than me. I was oppa to her. I've been bowing down greeting her all these time thinking that I was the younger one. Time changed...and I get to be the older one in the society now... Anyways, I carried the vacuum cleaner and as I was cleaning, I saw her.. In a hope to get closer to her.. Ha.. I'm crazy.. I promised myself not to make friends with girls but I was already talking to her.. I kind of tried to be mischeivous with her by asking her to bow to me as I was the older one. Then the conversation began and somewhat we were communicating.. I could feel that I can talk to her although she wasn't the type that I liked.. Finished cleaning the whole place together with her and that was the end. Work ended and I left for home. When I was again alone in the train going home, flashing back what I'd done, I sighed and hit my head regretting...Ha... Why even talk to her! I do know all these regrets are damn useless as I know I will be talking tomorrow too. But just remember Youngsub... You do not have to be someone you are not when facing her and you do not need to try to get close to her. You do not like her. You indeed do not want her as your girlfriend or a married partner. So don't try too hard.
Skipped gym after work as I was too tired and postponed it for tomorrow.
Hope I can wake up early tomorrow morning and go for gym and have a pleasant day.
Thank you for today..and..
Goodnight..
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