Midnight.. The cold lonely midnight is up.
My father's wake broke me from the sleep. I wanted to sleep alone in the cold room but dad suggested I sleep beside him at the master room as he will be waking up early too. Waking up at 6:30 with dad, those who were to leave for work(dad and I) began moving busily to prepare. The cold winds of the dawnsides and the laziness of the sweet dream made me to shiver in the blanket. Mom woke up too, to prepare for our breakfast. After having it, I washed up and got ready to leave when it was 7:10. It was the earliest time I ever left the house. Still little bit dark outside under the winter's weather, I woke the road together with the currents of the wind. Walking this battle alone. Halfway going to the library, I dropped by at the bank to check whether the payment was sent from the flyer distributor and there was exactly 180,000 which made it done. I wanted to drop by at the library before going work. Work was at 9:30 but I wanted to spend some time in the library and read the newspapers. On walking up the mountain and reaching the library, the landscape that displayed against me was just brilliant.
Suwon's morning is up.
It made me feel diligent too, to have made a day earlier than the others, and to have saved time and did somethingg productive for myself. There were a few people who were more diligent than me who already reached the library and studied. I placed my bag at the last seat in the study room to be roaming around freely and went to the corridor to flip through the newspapers. There were only a few papers that were updated to the today's one as some press do not provide papers on the weekends. I did not even realize today was weekend till I see the emptied papers. The routinely work that I do everyday here in Korea, made the difference between weekdays and weekends meaningless.
Left the library around 8:50, hoping to reach earlier than usual and prepare for work earlier than yesterday so I can do my job more effectively during work. The winds were not as mean as the time I left home.
On reaching the shop, all the full-time workers except the manager auntie was around. I began to have respects for them. They don't have holidays. They work everyday from 9 to 9pm and they have no holidays. This was really amazing. Me, working a day in here was already tired off but for them was such casual. I changed up and looked around to see what I can help and Kyungmin reached. She is really diligent girl. Her house is about 20 mins far by train, yet she always reach earlier than time. Today, like the manager auntie told us yesterday, had one more part-timer.
While we were waiting for the work to start, I took a moment to ask the manager whether our work was to be till 18th, as I kept heard from others it will only be till 8th while the advertisement told us it will be till 18th. Kyungmin was nervous that this work will only last till 8th as she had to make money as soon till end Jan to save money for her travel fee to UK. However the reply from the manager was real shocking till I thought she was kidding. She told us we do not have to come after tomorrow. She told us that the event hall had been shorted to tomorrow and there is no need for us to stay for so long. I was bit shocked but making the manager feel less sorry to us was first. Then, I began suiting Kyungmin. Kyungmin seemed depressed like her usual face. Without saying anything she was using her mobile phone and was searching for job already.
The part-timer that she brought was her friend. She was at her fourties and an auntie too. She was not so into selling job as she told me she only did part time jobs when she was a student. So its decades back. The three of us, Kyungmin, manager friend and I were to work at the event hall for the whole day today. There was no senior worker to help. I began explaining to the manager friend about skills and the job scope. All the other part-timers from the tables beside reached and the mall opened. Even though there were more people as it was weekend but there were still no customer till about 1pm.
Kyungmin seemed weird today. I had a feeling that she is avoiding me. Whenever we were waiting for customer, she would stay away from me. If I walk to her side she would walk to the other side. Whenever I start a conversation, she wouldn't reply even those short replies she did for me to continue my conversation myself ytd. She was really changed today. I felt dispirited thinking that what if I had done something wrong to her. I kept talking to her till she would open her mouth. But halfway through EUReka! I thought that she might be having period. That's something a man should understand for every woman. I was also worried that she doesn't like me talking to other girl part-timers beside our shop so I began avoiding to talk to them too. All the way during lunch meal we had tgt, we didn't talk much unlike ytd. Maybe, we talked too much ytd that we have no topics anymore. The three of us working, was most of the time silent. I didn't bother asking much or making jokes as I was really bit dispirited. I kept thinking I had made some mistake to Kyungmin.
When 3pm came, there was no time for such thought. The shop stormed with customers that there were no time for any moments for thought. As I was the only guy and was the fastest among all, I was the runner for the shop. Whenver the table at the event hall lacked of stocks, I would run to take to serve it to the customers. I was glad I can do running and sweating in this cold winter. Time past past past and it got more boring and boring. Customers began fading away after 5 and there was more time where the part-timers at the event hall were all silent. I, as the guy thought should take the responsibility to lighten the mood but I couldn't, being dispritied. At 6, the full-time nuna came over to remind us that we can have 30mins of break one by one. I told the manager frined to go for break first and then when she came back, I told kyungmin to go first.
All the way was silent till after this dinner break. The manager friend went home as there were not many people and there was only me and Kyungmin for our shop. As the part-timers themselves began chatting and the mood was good. So I began to talk to her bringing some jokes about what if she can't find part-time job before she flies to London and all. Being a born comedian, I successed to made her laugh but she seemed to be little bit annoyed. Maybe, my way is wrong in terms of communicating with people. At times, I feel that my way of communication is too much of one way. I'm the only one talking and the otehr party is mostly the one listening, laughing and at worst case get annoyed. I had realized this pattern really long time ago... I hope to fix it
So soon... the unwanted 8:30 came where it was the end of work. I didn't want work to end before Kyungmin was okay with me. cos if not I would feel bad at home. We cleared the table, worke the clothes and left the mall. I tried to make jokes till the separation and she was annoyed till the separation. I felt super guilty as soon as we set apart. And even now I feel bad and just dispirited. I had witnessed so many of this sort of conversation myself. It is obviously my fault. Ha. Anyone has the answer that you know but did not tell me? Mind telling me to help me out please. God help me...I'm such bad person asking for help while I go work and skip church tmr.
Reached home and ate mom's dinner. She again, sat down beside me watching tv. It was total silent as mom and I are still in cold war. Mom's presence just beside me still make my meal time little bit uncomfortable.... While having the meal, we watched 'Infinite Challenge' that showed the call-back of the singers who were popular in the 90's and perform again like how they did in the 90's. The crowds' support and the singers' passion even made me cry although I'm not from the 90's. It was really touching.
And now, I'm in front of my Samsung ATIV laptop typing my 24th story in Suwon...
What..would happen tomorrow.
Always hoping for a variety of stories...here the night goes...
Goodnight...
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