Going to plan a trip when it reaches Day 50.
haha just wanted to remind myself as that's the thought that came up just now.
Youngsub, for ur info, you are feeling quite bad now, at this time. You just had a quarrel with mom and you are feeling bad....
This morning woke me up with a plan that I had in mind. Those plans I made the last night. I had to wake up at 7:30 to have a heavy breakfast to ready myself before a vigorous exercise day. I had to reach the football centre for a free trial by 10. It was a 30 mins distance off from my house by bike so I wanted to leave home around 9:30. I only woke up at 8 and I thought that it was too late to eat something heavy as I will vomit them out while playing football. Had a light breakfast of corn flakes and read some articles and left home when it was around 9:25. I prepared all the gears and left home secretly. It was a top secret to be going there. Mom didn't know about me going to the football center to learn football. She is even mad about the idea of me watching football, she would indeed be mad with me enrolling for football lessons.
Riding on the bike, I travelled to the center looking on the photos of the map that I took on the phone the last night. As it was first time travelling there, it was pretty confusing to find the way out. I had to ask the residences to sort out the directions. Travelling places all on my own, I am getting to further the places I've been in Suwon. It was such hard way getting there. As I was travelling with bike, there were lots of uphill roads and downhill roads. Although the downhill roads made my bike journey pleasant for that moment, there were worries in me to think how I should climb this back on the way back. As I was travelling, this place seemed familiar. Then I realised, this place was the place I walked up all alone when I had run away from home during my Olevel retaking period. That was the toughest time in my life. Had so much quarrel with parents as we disagreed to almost everything with each other. Everytime a quarrel happened, I always resorted to escaping from home and sleeping outside. That time too, I wanted to live on my own and thought that I should start working so I can earn the money to live on my own.
I finally reached the center after such long and exhausting journey. It took me about 40mins and when I got down from the bike, my legs were shaking. I knew this free trial today is going to be a waste as my body condition was already like that. I entered the center and the center's ground was all filled with grass. The coach directed me into the room and I changed into my football boots to join the training with other adults. It was an adult's class, and it was only 10 in the morning, there were only three people there to exercise. I joined them and finished all the drills that took about an hour. After resting for so long, following up with the drills were pretty hard. After the training, I had talks with the other coaches about the training systems and how the fees were like. Just then, when I was talking to the person, I became hesitant to tell him that I want to register... This thought came up....that what ... if ... what I like the most .. and what I craved the most is not football...
What if .. I actually like other things more...like musical and dancing.... Maybe it was because I did not have a satisfying time during trainings due to my lack of physical ability. I decided to postpone my decision and left the center. I went out of the building and heard a growling sound from my stomach. My first plan was to gym first before I eat my lunch. However I was too hungry to go for gym as I only had a light one for my breakfast. I held my stomach and tried to find any cheap place where I can eat my lunch. As I was gymming now, I tried to keep myself with a proper diest for every meal. Lunch had to be veg, meat and carbs according to my ex-trainer, Muhammad Ikhwan. Looking for a cheap place like 3000won that sell this was a hard-to-find. I decided to just rush to the gym and just have my lunch when I park my bike around there. I took a seat, had a rice-spicy pork-veg for lunch. Then, I carried my exhausted body again to the gym. At the time when I was carrying my body to the gym, I was already dying out. There was no more energies left for me to do anything. I was so tired of more than an hour of cycling up the uphills finding the direction to gym and the football center and an hour of practice at the center.
I walked up the staircase to the gym like a zombie. Reached the gym and I changed up and just took a seat at the bench... just breathing... Only breathing... I tried to save all the energies I can by not opening my eyes big, not sitting up straight and not moving. After 30mins of not doing these, I walked out and tried to find a trainer who can guide me out as the uncle taught me ytd and I lost my chance learning from the trainer. It was really great to have come in the noon as there were way fewer people in the gym compared to that time. I was able to get a one-on-one attention from the lady trainer and learned all the steps to do the exercises. The lady trainer was a current body-builder athlete. I was really glad to have find the right trainer in here as it was bit different when I registered for the gym that was nearby my house. That trainer was tall and caring but had not much of physical appearance that convinced people he was a trainer.
Learning all the steps, and repeating those, I bathed myself and left the gym. The water that sparked
out from the shower was like honey flowing down. That's how accomplished I felt.
I, then moved onto do the next step. I visited the library that was just beside the gym. As usual, I began scanning all the places and found a place where people can use their laptops. The right place for me! I put my laptop and began doing all those stuff that I usually did. I realised this place could come into a great use on days like today where I finish gymming and the time is still early.
Spent about an hour and left for home. It was 5:30 yet I was dying out. There was totally no more energies left and I really felt home as mom welcomed me with steaks and I lied on a comfortable silky blankets.
However, this pleasure did not last so long. Mom suddenly told me that I will have to go and renew my passport soon. I told her I already renewed and mom made some unhappy remarks about me going around places while she thought I was in the library all day. I told her that it was because she didn't care about me. I could feel the atmosphere changed from hot summer to Philippines' June's damn hot summer. Mom stared at me and I tried to avoid her eyes. She couldn't control her emotions and began screaming and shouting. I, too confessed all the unhappy things I had that I kept within myself.. there were a series of quarrel and I was left alone in this room typing my diary while sis and mom was having fun time tgt in the master room. The cold war only broke when dad came home with 'Honey butter chip' which is a super popular chip in Korea that is hard to get. He gave it to sis and sis brought this to my room to give it to me. Mom followed up and I asked for one and somehow the atmosphere smoothed down. Luckily, the day is closing on a comparatively happier note. Hope for another fulfilling day tomorrow. Hope that I can mingle well with the guys at work. I want to have some guy friends in Korea.
Goodnight..
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