Yesterday.. I was quite drunk and really tired that I couldn't write the diary.
Met my old friends.. Hyun woo.. who used to stay with me for the whole year in my first J1 in 2013.. Sang Moo.. who was my school mate...
I don't clearly remember of the detailed events that happened yesterday but one thing to note was that in the morning.. when I was pumping the air into the roller, I purposely directed the air at my colleague. The air was really strong that can like really push all the hair back. I've done that to several people till now so I thought it would be okay too. I had thought like she would take it just as a joke either. However.. I was a fool to think that everybody would think that way. I held the vacuum pump on her face for quite long till she was far enough that the air wouldn't reach because when I'd tried it to others before.. I wasn't happy just airing on their face for like a second. I wasn't satisfied so this time I just put it on her face. The response was rather horrifying. She screamed.. and even if I said sorry and tried to hold her back.. She rushed away without looking back. I didn't know what to do and started to tremble. I was horribly terrified either as I was scared that she will go and tell the boss about it and the boss indeed would scold me big time. Other than that.. at first I thought she was crying. So I was really afraid that I hurt her. I knew myself being naughty can be a great ice breaker but crossing the line would mean I might not even be forgiven. I didn't want that to happen.
In the end.. we got back.. and got closer again but this I gotta remember.. I should be more mindful of how others might react. Like be more considerate like my sister does.
And also yesterday.. my boss forgot to order my lunch pack so I had to eat out. It was great walking out for lunch as it was quite stuffy inside at work.
Another thing that I regret doing .. was that.. when I was in charge of the zone where kids take the mini car. I saw a ring-shaped tool that was dropped on the floor. I took it in my pocket and thought that I should use it later to give to my close nuna Hyeji. Not long after. I found her so I gave her the ring and tell her its my heart. She laughed and as she was touching it.. it actually made scar on her finger. She later came to me showing her finger with a bandage. I laughed at that moment as she seemed to be okay with it but I really shouldn't have done it. That was dangerous for her...
Learned those today remember tomorrow and don't repeat the mistakes.
I ended work really early like at 5:30 PM. We were to meet at Sindang for dinner at 6. However... I chitchat with other colleagues who were still working and in the end I reached Sindang at 6:30 which was like 25 minutes distant from my work place. Sam reached late too as he reached like 10mins later than me. Hyun Woo was familiar with the place as he had lived here before. We went to the place he had recommended and began our dinner. Hyun Woo didn't like to drink. But me and Sam being like hmm we had been drinking together even when we were back in Singapore. We ordered Soju. It was pretty momentous to both of us as drinking that was different from just beer. Soju hmmm has friendships..love and all in it. Has many conventions in the way to drink and all... meeting him when we were 15 and now we've grown up and we are drinking together... Memorable day..
The things we shared under the drunk talk.. all the laughters and tears.. I want to keep it in my heart. As that night.. was really something to remember.. Really something to remember..
Sam got drunk easy.. I thought he would be stronger than I did.. I guess.. the repetitive drink encounters I've made at work made me to be stronger. It was my first time drinking this much too. We drank like 6 bottles of soju and one bottle of beer.
We parted when it was like 10:30. On the way home.. I was quite high already. I wanted to talk to someone. At first ... I wanted to talk to Eun Sun. Talking to her was always as fun. But... I didn't like hmm.. want her to misunderstand and all.. but calling her was hmmm after getting drunk might make her to misunderstand actually. So I called my close friend Jae Yeon.. whom i've met in Busan. We talked for like 20 mins and I tried to hang up the phone as I wanted to talk to Eun Sun... Without thinking.. I just pressed the call button and talked to her on the phone. I always feel happy that she receives my call fast. Whenever I call. Although I've only called her twice.
I talked to her all the way till I reached home. We had a glad conversation but at one time.. she asked me whether I like her. When I told her I want to meet her out ... like I want to have dinner with her and enjoy life like how the Korean college students do as she was one of them. It's yes that I actually do have interest in her .. but I guess not like love.. like as a boy girl. I don't know. Maybe I do like her while knowing that she isn't my type. She is 169 too tall.. I don't know.. what to do. Today at work.. the two close friends of Eun Sun.. asked that we should meet up after work in group like the four girls and me and Jun Sung. She told me I'm the organiser of this but I don't know what to do.... Like firstly I don't like meeting girls and guys together. I prefer having just guys meet-ups or if not then just girls meet ups. And another is that hmm.. Eun Sun actually asked me whether do I like Yun ah..one of the four girls. So is like.. if during that meet-up if i'm like close to Yun Ah.. Eun sun could be jealous and might think me as like.. you plaed with me or sth... I don't want to have that kind of complicated relationship with girls.. I've got to control me...
Reached home... and had bit quarrel with mom. Mom suddenly reminded me that I have to go temple tomorrow..which is today. I was supposed to go church and play Sunday morning football but going to temple would mean I can't go either of them.
I had actually promised with my sis that we will go to the shopping mall to buy her shirt so I decided not to go for football and go for shopping. I should be clear from next week. No time can be wasted like that. I only get a chance to play game like once in a week and wasting that time like this would mean I am ready to fail again.
Got up this morning .. we went to the temple to greet my grandmother. My father's mom. Mom wanted to go as family to greet her. While going to the temple.. mom and dad had somewhat of quarrel between them and didn't talk to each other all the way.
Dad brought us till the shopping mall. I was supposed to buy shoe either. Me being a undecisive person I really can't decide. I thought like for 2 hours and still couldn't decide. I decided the design of the shoe but couldn't choose the colour. There was like 8 colors of the same design and I really can't choose. Mom was ashamed of me that she wanted to just throw her cash card and leave me. I really couldn't choose one that mom just chose one color and cut off the tag using the scissor so I can't get refunded or anything.
Reached home after that and day went fast like that..
Tomorrow I'm meeting my Sunday school teacher in Singapore.. Heo Chan. He is hmm a pastor now in church. He lives in Suwon too and I don't really know why but he loves me a lot. He was the one that brought me back to church when I was about to be drifted away. It would be another memorable day seeing him in Korea for the first time. Thank God for today...
Goodnight..
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