Got to work.
There are girls and boys. Boys.. some group complain about the boss. Me.. as I don't have that same bad feeling towards the boss.. I can't agree with him. I don't want to confront him.. but I don't want to agree with for what I do not agree either. People who agree with each other hang along...
As we do have lunch times..break times.. and all the social gatherings happen among the colleagues.. I realized today.. as I was on the way home on the bike... I realized.. I am more comfortable with girls. not boys. This is the conclusion.. and there are no excuses to it. Until now.. I used to contact with girls more often. Like Kelly..amy adeline Fariza.. and Sinyoung. I used to think that I get to message and contact with the girls more often than guys because guys do not like messaging a lot. I do have good friends like Soccer friends and class friends and church friends who are male so that also convinced me that I was talking to girls more often as the girls like to message.
However.. all these became a false statement today as I realized who I am. I do not like talking to the guys. And even if I do like.. those people are people who agree with me more and laugh at my jokes. Which means.. I can only hang with guys who like me. Can't get along with those who do not agree with me. Those guys like Wei Yang..Shawn.. Jun and all.. they cliqued with me well.. some let themselves down to converse with me... or some actually did agree with me. I was more comfortable with girls ..cos maybe .. the way I talk .. think and agree have become more to girls than how guys do. That's why I'm more comfortable with girls I guess.
I've got to change this habit if I'm unhappy being closer to girls than boys. I used to think having female friends is great as long as they are friends. However now... having less or no male friends.. things are different. I feel like hmmm.. those boys in class who is the only guy hanging with girls. Like in a group there is only one male and five girls or something. I feel like I've become someone like that and I do not like it.
Changing this habit that I"ve been having for so long would be hard. I've become soft.. and would be hard to suit in to the boys group to get along. It's going to be challenging but I should strive for it.
I don't really need to see and learn and follow like how they do cos I will lose the good things I do have now. But.I should see the way they communicate and agree with each other. And learn those that I would want to learn.. Learned something today!
Goodnight..
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