Midnight in Suwon - Day 60

Hello midnight in Suwon.

The 60th day is here and I feel.. time do fly fast..

Last night... I finally had a such great alone night time... where I was the only one awake in the room at night..  I quickly began watching Misaeng Ep2 on TV's VOD. I couldn't watch this with anyone disturbing.. I need full focus to be in the scene.. and feel the main character... of how he suffers as he goes through his working life... And sympathize myself with the main character, Jang Gre.. who often get scolded from the boss...

I couldn't watch for long as I was really tired the last night.

I woke up in the morning earlier than any others. Woke up when it was like 8:30 in the morning. Waking up earlier than others,.. the diligence ... began to be accustomed to my body.. There were two things I had to do today. Going to the Sunday morning football team and to go to church. I used phone to reply to all the messages. All the birthday messages.

I moved myself when it was 9, to go for the football game. I wasn't sure whether they were still playing at the venue, as when I had visited the venue few weeks ago, they weren't playing there. They usually change the venue when its winter season, as its too cold. Moving my bike to the venue which is the primary school, I thought like should I just go home and contact the other club that I had contacted few weeks ago? That team I contacted were like a strongly built team and they had matches regularly every week and had won trophies in some tournaments. As they usually played at evening time, I thought that I can go to church service too. When I reached the venue.. there were a few cars. When there are cars in front the school, it meant that they were there. However, I couldn't see anybody in the school, playing. I was about to move back home.. then suddenly, one uncle opened the car door to say hi. He was the chairperson of the team. He was the guy always being so friendly when I went to the team during holidays when I was in Korea. The team is made of 40s to 70s. There were no kids. I was the youngest of all of them.

He told me that they were staying in the car first as the others haven't reached and was so cold outside. He asked me to get in the car and I waited in the car for the others. There were like three people already in the car. The great thing about coming here is that as they are all like of my father's age.. they treat me quite nicely although I always am burden to the team.. not playing well.

As we got into the school.. they began taking out their drinks and food as usual. This group being focus on more to friendliness than winning... people love gathering more for drinking than football. They took out their cooking gears and started boiling water. They bought 4kg of oysters. And they bought like one box of raw rice wine, Makgeoli, and Raspberry wine. They suggested that I drink as I'm finally legal. I don't know how they even play when they get so dizzy as that. We played a short mini game as only like 15 people came. As we were playing.. people praised me that I got better as I got older. I do know I sucked big time before.. so the differences were distinct.

However, still I still wasn't good enough. I made a several pass misses and they were all still better than I did. Although I had better stamina and speed... I still couldn't pass properly on match occasions.

A while later, another team came to our venue to suggest we have a friendly. We accepted the challenge and played 11 a-side. They were busy talking bout their tactics and strategy and we were busy drinking and eating. When we got on the field, the chairman told us to just stand at wherever we want to stand. I stood at the right back and there were like three Right Backs. As I was the youngest, I just moved myself to other position. Played Center Midfield and I was quite satisfied to play here. There were more touches I could made on playing in the center. If i played in the right. I could only get the ball when the opponent attacks to that side. But this time.. all the attacks went pass through me.. so I was able to make a several touches. Although I missed at times.. I made some great chances.

Match ended as 2-2 and I was really unsatisfied. I played right back for the second half but wasn't as happy to be playing. My play overall was totally unsatisfactory as I had made several misses. It was true that the people I pass couldn't get my pass as they can't run fast but it was still my fault passing that way.

Got home and my knee was bleeding. I had to walk with a slight limp as my shin hit hard on the opponent while I was trying to clear the ball away.

Had a heavy lunch after playing so fun.. and we all headed to sauna. Spent like 3-4 hours there and got home.. Had dinner and now I'm here typing my 60th day in here..

I need to get more mature... to be more mature in family... and also to find a way to go to church next week. Praying only because I need sth isn't right..

I should find ways...

Goodnight..