The midnight is here... and I'm awkwardly typing my story of the day in the master room while mom is beside me lying on the bed watching TV.
My sister hasn't finished using the room that I always used to use my computer and have my alone time. However still... didn't feel like annoying my sis.. after getting back from work... After all..it's my family.. whom I have to care most and whom I can come back at any time..
My body clock suddenly woke me up when it was 5:20 in the morning.. The constant practices of waking up at this time made my body to react instinctively. As soon as I got up.. I off the alarm clock that was to start in 10mins time. I didn't want to wake the others up. Mom had such bad cold and I wanted her to get a deep long sleep..
Like I had heard from my physical trainer, I tried to get fruits that had low G.I index so I can digest fast before going for the gym work in the morning. I had an apple for breakfast and quickly prepared to get out. It was only 5:45 in the morning. I wasn't lazy but the thought of facing the cold winds and being out from the door made me to... shiver even before I left home. I woke dad up so he can lock the door when I"m out. Took on the bike and moved myself... The coldness in the morning is not sth that one can describe. The lonelines...the coldness.. that surround my body...
Reached gym and had a strenuous work in gym. When I was at the last stage of my gym work which was doing the push-ups on the mattresses, a mom who was doing yoga with her son asked what grade I am. I told her I was a college student and she was so surprised telling me that she thought I was a primary school student. I always get such reactions and now I'm too used to it.
Left gym and reached work when it was like 9:30. Always feel fresh when I just reach. As soon as I reached, I saw the boss sitting at the counter. He was facing his back but I shouted out to say hi to him. He was kind of happy and glad that I said hi. Yes Youngsub... Always remember... you might not be fast at understanding... but try to be the best with courtesy...and hardworking...
Today was such rough day... I got scolded like usual in the morning's assembly as I was doing other things while he was talking. Until this part was still pretty normal. Getting scolded is always normal and how I got over it and didn't feel bad was that ... I found the key in positivity. Staying positive for no matter what people say and trying to learn from their nags...
Today, I was given the role as an usher when the kindergartens come in. This roles were only given to those seniors as it needed a spontaneous reactions with teamwork. I was happy to be given such role although I got a worried face from the other boss. Even before this role began, while I was doing a petty chores given from the boss, I still got scolded. But I was still fine. It wasn't that I didn't do. It was that I did it but didn't get what he wanted and didn't understand fully. Now I got scolded... Now i learned more.... The heart in me shouted..'Criticize me... more..'
When the usher job began... it was super confusing and all... The kindergartens didn't come like one by one as how I had wished but some came one in a time. It was really supersuper confusing and I was lost not knowing what to do.. just fidgeting.. And there were some communication problems I caused and I got scolded by the boss again... with vulgar that I didn't hear before.... on the walkie-talkie...so every colleagues heard it... I was still fine though although it was hard to keep my face bright...
The stormy time passed and lunch time came like a few while later. I tried to keep calm.. and when I talked to the kids.. I felt slightly better. The other boss came to comfort me too but I totally felt fine anyways... If I had felt bad about it... I could be called as just the same person as before.. But now i'm different... I accept people's comment.. I want to realize all those are caused by me... All on me...
There were other times I got scolded too.. and some how.. work ended. Another day of work... ended like..this...
One great thing about today's work was that after work, I got to meet this new guy, Jin Oh. He was the same age as me. I was quite glad to have finally found someone of the same age as me and a guy friend. I wanted to be good friends with him. Plus that. he lived at An San which was quite near to my house. We went home together. He was a nice guy to talk to and I was happy that he kinda opened up for talk as we were going home. He somewhat talked the same amount as me. Considering I talk damn a lot I felt happy he opened up. He is not as lucky (?) as me to be employed in here but I hope he get a job in here. He also got scolded this morning during the morning assembly like I did as he wasn't listening either. Hope I can be his good friend..
Today.. a full day of scoldings.. maybe I can call it learning...
My colleague who is 3 years older than me... talked about me to others that I would get scolded every single day I come but still wouldn't quit... He was saying in a joking way but that came on hand to me. Yes... Don't ever give up. To show you are a real strong one... is by standing up each time I get down... not packing my bag and showing my anger..
Fighting tomorrow too...
Goodnight..
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