There is this.. little dot that remains on my conscience..
This feeling....
Like as if the meat that you had eaten for dinner ... is stuck at your teeth..
Ha..
Should have bought a white color tee instead of navy..
Damnnnn
Woke up early in the morning like 8:20. I read all the articles.. sports news... replied back to all the messages.. and was hoping.. in a mere hope that Eun Sun would get back to me.. She was supposed to see me today as today was Wednesday.
However.. her tone the day before was like such that she can hardly find the time.
I was really hoping.. that she can find a time for me... Because it was always my pleasure talking with her... talking to her... seeing her smiles....no actualy..hearing her smiles..
We only got to get closer through phone.. We were close too when we were working and meeting up but not that close. It was only when I took up the courage to text her and call her on the phone..
However... both of us know we are unfated.. I am leaving and she is staying.. Even if I do get back the country Calls me ... for a duty.. I can't be so irresponsible to leave a girl like that..
Hope.. I can turn into a free body.. that can get a girlfriend..without so much responsibilities in me..
It is ridiculous.. as this was what I had actually wanted before.. Being alone.. When I was in relationship..I missed so badly of being alone.. Being free.. And being single... so I can do things all things that I wanted to without any restrictions... However now... I guess.. I want love...when I shouldn't be..
Waited for mom to get home when she had left to take her Birth Certificate for her Uni submission. I had to scan it for her and upload it to her website.
It was already 9:26 when I left for football. I was thinking of parking my bike at the nearby MRT station and take the train to the football center but I thought.. maybe... I can make it. I took an hour getting there.. at the first time I go.. and after getting used.. I took about slightly more than 40 minutes.. 40 Minutes was not given for me for today. I only left 34 minutes before the class began.
I rushed all the way disregarding the traffic lights. Rushing like a mad dog and when I saw my phone to check the time when I reached. It was 9:54. 6 minutes before the lesson began. I had already reached. I was given more than enough time for warm-up.
Although on the way .. my thoughts were messed up with whether should I refund this clothes or that.. I decided to put my mind all into football.. Just football.. What's my aim today? I want to show improvement from yesterday's training achievements.. What's my training goal today? I want to practice the parts that I was insufficent during the training time on my individual training time.
Having these goals.. I was much lighter in my steps.. and performed way better than how I had done the day before. And realized the importance of making a football blog. Just for football.. So I can record what I had learned and keep reviewing to remind myself.
Had done a 30 mins of individual training and rushed to the library for mom's scanning work. On the way.. I dropped by at my bank to see whether mom had sent in the money. The money wasn't there.. I was bit surprised..as mom told me she would. I was getting my payment from work late at 20th March so didn't have the money to spend before I left. Mom promised to send me the money first and I just return to her when I get my work payments.. I smsed mom why she had not put in the money..
I had a light meal of Kimchi Fried Rice.. and got to the library to settle mom's stuff.. Took me an hour and when I got back to the gym it was already 3pm. Considering the time I needed to spend buying clothes and refunding.. it wasn't enough time.. considering how indecisive I was. However... preparing for my shopping today the day before.. the process was smoooth. I knew what I wanted to buy and all things were smooth. Because.. today I had gone to another mall that was nearby the one I used to go. Just had that thought when I was about to go to the mall that I used to go. There were more brands in here and made me regret somewhat that why didn't I come here first in the first place. There were more people coming to this mall too so less attentions were given up to me. Like my normal routine.. I checked out all the shops in this mall. And listed out what I wanted to buy. Bought three t-shirt, one checkered t, and a jean. At normal speed, it should have taken me three days to buy all these. However, with proper checking of the lists I wanted to buy.. and putting priorities in what I had wanted to buy. Things were done fast and less indecisive too. I was so satisfied with today's shopping.
However the only thing ... Ha.. is that I just feel that buying a navy shirt is nice.. but white shirt with me was fine too .. and especially if it was a Guess shirt.. I really should have bought a white one.. because..
because of this University guy in the movie called 'Gunchukhakgaeron' wears that guess shirt inside the checkered tee... That looks so much like a Uni student.. wearing that.. Ha... Sigh....
Another night.. will be in ponder whether should I go and get it changed to a white one or not...
Goodnight...
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