Midnight in Suwon - Day 80

80th night..

And today.. the last day of larva... last day of work... being called a teacher... Larva Uncle.. Larva teacher...

I would miss these time... pretty bad..

All the hardships..pleasure..learnings..memories..friendships..vulgarities I heard.. relationships.. efforts..sweats.. and all... all that would remain in me..

Woke up.. and I knew.. today was the last day... that was the first thought I had...

Had three bananas and a can of chicken breast for breakfast. I washed my hair dried..and left for work... before I left for work.. I looked through my bookshelf... checking out whether there is anything that I can present to colleagues and boss... Being here for such short..there wasn't much that  I could give..

Left the house in silence.. Mom and I still in a bad relationship.. we didn't bother talking to each other.

Turned on the music... and headed for work... slowly pedalling my bike.

All the thoughts coming... that this was the last time... leaving for work...

every single moments were last..

When I was in the train.. thinking of the past... of the things that had happened.. memories made my eyes red..

Reached work.. and I brightly greeted the boss and changed up. Last time changing up in here...

Quickly got out.. and I was given those roles that seniors did like.. turning on the switches and all..

I was willing to do it fast and do it more... now that i've become the experienced one in here.. I want to contribute... and pay back to my boss' trust..

Although I was scolded again for not doing what I was asked to do properly... i still was the trusted man.

Thanks for that to him..

I was assigned the boxing zone.. the last day of my work.. my role. is boxing zone.

This zone required me to keep pumping in the air inside the roller. There were holes on the roller so I had to pump it minutely. When not much people were around.. boss came nearby to help me out with taping the holes..

While he was taping and when we were just two of us.. he began asking by saying today is my last day.. and told me about his work life.. and gave some advice on spending my holidays.....

He is great at work. He does things correctly. Can't call it neat or perfect but he doesn't like making mistakes while doing work. Military style.. Many of my colleagues do not like him... yes.. he does have that temper that gets him angry so easily .. says harsh words quiet often very easily. But now that I see... he is saying all because he knows we can do it.. not just getting angry on us for no reasons. He has reasons.. lives alone.. loves to go out for a drink after work .. and that is why when people judge him just by his harsh words and avoid going for drinks after work  he gets sad...

He would scold me.. but I'm just so proud ... that I've changed.. from not willing to change to willing to listen. I see his harsh words as a time for improvement. I love that whenever I ask questions to him. he doesn't see it as time-troubling but explain every details of why although he may explain it in a harsh manner too. I do like him.

I got scolded again today for not plugging the walkie-talkie to my ears during lunch break. I was hurt a bit to hear that harsh words but i do realize its my fault so i'm alright.

Dealing with kids... talking to them.. seeing their innocent hearts.. asking their personal lives... learning to talk and communicate with them... learning to teach and stop when they do wrong too...

Outside dealing with kids... learning to deal things with teachers..parents... getting their complains.. and learning how to deal with them.

Outside all these.. doing disposal work for the first time in my life... cleaning the toilets.. vacuuming the whole hall... and everything... getting orders and performing them... I've grown. I 've learned...

I have so much to thank them..

So many memories i've made with the colleagues.. making so many treasurable friends.... I've made such valuable relationship in here.. talking to new people everyday.. I've learned to see what things people like about my words and what they do not like..

I went around with an elderly brother who came for work in here only like three days... I went around with him to teach him all the things he had to do for tomorrow which is the last day of this exhibition hall although today was the last day for me as I wasn't working tomorrow.

Going through every single steps..

Every steps..are the last walking steps..

Glad that I 've grown.. to someone who was trusted... to teach other people around..

Glad that I've changed to a person who would listen..

My colleagues.. Yun Ah and Ji young .. we took photos at the photoshoot zones that the customers used to take. I took one with the boss too. Before leaving.. I left my number to him too.. Giving him my sg number too hoping he would contact me again. He had much interest about going to Singapore.. always asking me where the places are and what foods are nice. While the three of us were leaving and all the lights were off at the exhibition hall.. he was still inside alone at the hall.. We asked why wasn't he leaving... He said he's okay.. and he would just turn music loud and spend the night..

We all could feel his loneliness.. We were supposed to have dinner together with him.. I mean he was supposed to. He planned to make a dinner on 27th as a sort of dinner as the work was ending. Everybody avoided attending.. and that left him alone there... we all know he speak harsh.. but he aint harsh inside.. I do know that...

It was really sad... leaving the door... seeing him alone... at this big exhibition hall..

Yun ah and Ji young were going for the final dinner. They planned one for just the colleagues excluding the boss. they weren't comfortable having dinner with the boss. I was supposed to go but I had to attend the show with Sam and Hyun woo so I wasn't able to go... promising for a meet-up next week..

Nanta show was great. We had kimchi soup for dinner with one bottle of soju... I don't know why but I easily got drunk tonight.. I only drank like 4cups but got drunk so fast.. After watching the show we had a bite of hamburger at Lotteria and we set apart.. They all had girlfriends... Calling their honeys while heading home... I was thinking whether should I call Eun Sun on the way. I loved talking to her.. but I did know that calling her more often would only make things.. like I mean..make her misunderstand.. Don't play with her if you do not like her as a girl.. You are not playing but it can be seen as such that  I like her from her view...

Reached home.. and I'm still lying in the memories of Larva...

Thanks to all of them... and thanks for today ...

Goodnight...