Seeing the neon signs... the people who are still walking in the night... uncles and aunties.. hurrying to close their shops.. to get home... seeing those sights outside.. fell in a ponder...
Woke up in the morning around 8. I could have slept more.. but I preferred to settle my problems that I had with the school matters.. Read all the emails and the PDF file attachments that I had received from the school... Mom woke up about 15 minutes later than I did and as soon as she saw me looking at the monitor screen.. she was angry.. Mom being short tempered.. she easily gets angry. I ... being short tempered.. either.. shouted back what I was up to.. and why she wasn't able to understand me all time.
The house fell in a silence and I hurried on to read the emails and search for any queries I had as I wanted to call up to SIM when it comes to the operating hours.
After talking to SIM and reading most of the details I had to for school.. I then began to think what I can do for today..
There were a limited time.. as I only had time till 5:30pm. There was a family gathering at 6pm as it was our grandma's birthday. It was already 11 am when I began to think what I should do. I, first called the Samsung service center to ask whether can I get my computer be formatted. Having a Samsung gadget is always great when it comes to repair services. They told me that I could get a repair service for free.
My schedule for the day was fixed. Going to the service center to leave my laptop there.. and go to the gym for a workout and get back to the center to retrieve my computer and get back home.
It was all done smooth and got back home when it was 4. Not so long later.. mom and sis got back home too. They went to the sauna like how they had usually spent their weekends.
Checked out my newly formatted laptop and watched the opening game for the K-league between Jeonbuk and Seongnam. Everytime I was watching a football match.. I tried to spot the way a Right back or Left back player play. Tried to learn from the professional players' way of dealing football.. to learn the way play...
5:30 came so fast and we left for the restaurant. It was the ribs restaurant. The second eldest uncle came back to Korea from US since long time. It has been like 10 years since I had last seen him. All they asked to me were the same. Be it the second eldest uncle or the youngest uncle.. what they all were interested was about the date of getting back my result... and when the University starts in Singapore.. Mom.. always pressuring me to lie to the family that I had just taken my A-levels and had not taken back my result yet.. I always had to lie the truth..
After the dinner at the restaurant.. like how it was like before... after the dinner.. we all drove to the grandpa's house for the second round of conversation. Taking out the big table.. all the family sitting down surrounding the table.. grandpa took out the whiskey that had been preserved for the last 21years... Grandpa would always take out the Western liquors whenever we have a family gathering. The liquor was really strong that it was about 45% alcohol.
Listening to the uncles' talk ... and their advices... time passed fast and was already 10 when we all left for home..
Others all took their own car back home and our family was the only family to take the cab back home.. Seeing the neon signs outside... and the people hurrying to get home.. I fell in a ponder..
thinking back .. what I had seen and thought just now...
Just now when we all were going to the grandpa's house after our dinner.. I was at grandma's car with the youngest uncle and grandpa. Grandpa told grandma to stop by nearby the house as he wanted to get some strawberries for the family.. Grandpa bought a bucket of strawberries... and stopped by at the Chicken House to buy a packet of chicken. The person told grandpa that he had to wait a while as they had to heat up the chicken before we can take it away. Grandpa.. being really old.. he couldn't hear properly.. I had to shout at his ears so he could hear..
While we were sitting down at this noisy shop... both of us.. in silence... I looked at grandpa's face.. The person.. who used to live with me for like 10 years when I was staying in Korea.. the person who loved me the most amongst all the other cousins.. Seeing the wrinkles on his face.. it seemed still the same as the last time.. but him...not being able to hear properly... were signs that he was getting old.. After taking away the chicken... seeing him walking briskly back home from the back... I then thought.. how could I wish.. I can give allowance to him and my family every month...
I wouldn't be working so fast.... till I can give allowances to grandad..
but at least to my family... I want to help them up... Ma... Pa.... although I have let you down so much... how could I just get married and build my own family.. leaving the two of you... Although I had let the two of you down so much.. although it is just a thought for now after a few drinks.. I wish to see mom and dad living in a stable house with a stable monthly allowances from me before I get into a married life and all.. Sorry ma.. pa...
Mom... you always shout at me .. scold me.. and nag at me.. but.. she is still my mom.. my lovely mom. The person I love the most in this world.. After all.. it's still my mom... How'd I wish I can keep this heart for life...
Leaving the cab.. I just felt like talking.. keep talking.. trying to talk to dad.. who didn't talk a lot with me usually.. I asked him about cars as I was really curious about that.. When dad left halfway hometo get some beers.. I followed him to talk longer..
Hope I can get closer to my family.. Talking to them more.. and understanding them too...
Thanks for today.. and
Goodnight.
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