Midnight in Suwon - Day 84

The 84th night is here...

Booked my flight..

leaving for Singapore on the 15th night of March..

It would be the 95th midnight in Suwon..

Left with 11 days counting from now...

I've got to spend it ... different and.. make it memorable and lovable.

Doing different things.. and meaningful things everyday..

I had signed up for a volunteer activity which is on Friday..

It's to help the elderly..

I need to meet friends before leaving too...

Today... I woke up in the morning ... and realized that mom told me to get a specs today..

Told mom that I will be back by 4pm to get the spec.. I had to meet Jun today too..

Played football.. with a heavy body today..

as I had kicked too much ball the day before using the method of training I've made.

Had a Haejangkuk (hangover soup) for lunch and headed onto the gym..

Gymmed for about an hour and a half.. I rushed to the glasses shop that mom and I were supposed to meet. We first had an eye check-up at the opthalmic clinic.

They told me I had a serious astimagtism problem.. that my left eye and right eye's eyesight were heavily different..

Went to the spec shop at the second floor to buy the glasses..

I had in mind of the kind of specs I wanted..

It was like those.. that Joshua used to wear in school.

He cool shit but when he needs to read books and study.. he wears this spec temporarily which makes him look like those doctor. Like the one that's made of glass and metal.. not plastic.

I searched for those type and found it. Had a long time deciding what I should buy as I didn't want to regret like the other time..

Getting the spec I wanted.. it was about 120000 won. Pretty expensive that I sent 70000won straight away to mom's bank account after I left for Jun. I was supposed to send this money anyway for my handphone bills.

This spec was a gift from mom.

When I was in the train on the way to meet Jun.. I was excited again... Meeting friends... encounters... Is always a pleasure to me.

Took a photo of myself with this spec and sent to Un Young sister. She told me that spec makes me look uglier and asked me to take it off!

Just as I was taking selfie.. someone tapped me from the back.. asking me where is the train going to An Yang.. She was really pretty that I really wanted to help her out.. Really really pretty.. One of the prettiest girl I've seen.. I did't really know so she was about to leave me.. so I held her back to ask which stop is it like nearby and she told me Geumjeong.. I knew where to go so I directed her.. She was a beauty...

When I got on the train.. I felt guilty to Eun Sun.. Although we didn't have anything going on other than those few messages we shared...

Met Jun at the Ori station.. It's always a pleasure meeting him.. Like.. I don't have any pressure down me like what should I say and all. I just feel really comfortable with him..

Had Buddaejiggae for dinner. It was awesome. Really awesome.. and I got to drink soju with him for the first time too. Always drank beer with him when we were back in Singapore and now we were grown-ups drinking soju in Korea.. I loved it.

Our main topic again was about girl.

About the girl that he was having something on... and about Eun Sun..

There were no conclusion to what was what.. because we both were single and available after all...

Got to the cafe after it and drank some hot white chocolate latte and it was pretty awesome!!

I loved it.

The cream that was mixing the taste with the choco made my cold heart warm down..

Although he was easily tired off after drinking soju as usuall.. tlaking to him is alwasy great..

I can communicate with him.. and share all the things I had that  Icouldn't share with others.. and listening to what he  s going through too..

Love this time of life.. where I can talk with friends... and agree..

For the third venue we got to the KBOX to lighten up the mood.

He was damn tired already after that one bottle of soju unlike Sang Moo the power drinker.

Singing together in this KBOx for the past two years.. always love singing with him.. and I'm so used to the way he enjoy.. And when I should take the lead..when I should make the move and when I should intervene to sing a phrase and all...

Guesss I will be missing all those fun times with him when I'm back to Singapore..

He took the cab back home when it was about 10:30. His house was nearby and he had something to do with his dad..

I was back alone again.. and thought of Eun Sun again.. Being lightly drunk.. and this winter's wind giving me courage... I took out my phone and pressed the call button..

As soon as I pressed the call button.. I felt sth wasn't right.. I just felt calling her wasn't jsut right...

I hoped she would answer still but she didnt'...

I felt discouraged...heavily..

All the way back home.. she didn't give me a call back..

I was depressed..

Got home when it was like 12... and saw a message from her that she saw the missed call late...

That made me relieve actuallly..

I thought she wanted to cut ties with me or anythign... Ha...

Thank God she answered..

She isn't my type of girll and I know it's not the right timing or anything's right to have her..but I just like her... It's an infatuation I know... but it's so hard to release this tie that bounces my heart so hardly...

The strong urge...of this instinct..

I wouldn't know how to deal with it...

Tomorrow.. I will be going to football..

gym... and maybe.. I should spend the whole day in the library till the library close.. Reading.. and dipping myself in the book.. That's one different thing I want to be doing for tomorrow..

Excited for tomorrow!

Goodnight...