Midnight in Suwon - Day 85

85th night.. I'm left with 10 days from now..

Wanting to make every single day a different and a colorful one..

Tried to do different things everyday..

Today..  my aim in the morning was to go to the library and spend the whole day down there..

It failed.. as mom asked me to come home early for dinner..

but most importantly it was because I really was lazy to travel all the way down to the library..

I was even lazy to do gym today.. that I didn't gym but just bathed at the gym.

Instead... I did sth different today.. at least tried... to make today .. a different one..

Woke up in the morning around 8.. and mom asked me to sleep longer.. as she knew I had gone for sleep late the last night..

I didn't want to.. because I wanted to find out my house..to stay in Singapore..

Trying to find... I realize there are no house to rent me for 16days..

It was too short for any landlords..

Decided to find other way out like going into a hostel..

The only option I was left with was going into a hostel that was in Tanjong pagar.. owned by a Korean.

It was 30 bucks per day and it was pretty expensive..

Tried to find other way out and the only one that came up to me was Mr. Ong..

My secondary school form teacher.. who was still in contact with me since my graduation..

We were quite close that he had come down to Korea for a trip twice.. and when I was in Singapore.. he volunteered to be like somewhat friend.. father.. always fetching me to his house to make me study..

I asked him really politely.. whether can I stay while paying him..

I really didn't want to bother him but .. going to hostel was really too expensive..

Packed my bag.. and left for football...

It was another lazy morning..

Day by day.. I was getting damn lazy for this routinely work of football and gym..

Like some athlete..

Plus that... I was the only one training today... Which meant that the intensity of the training was at its highest...

However though... I managed to finish all the sets better than how I did yesterday.. My body was much lighter.. and I was able to breathe.. My stamina indeed improved..

I skipped the self training time as  I was already quite tired from the normal training time.. and lazy too..

I stopped by at the Suwon station.. and searched around for a place to eat my lunch.. I didn't want to go to the place that I usually went to.. I wanted to try new place.. I didn't have much time left staying in Suwon. And in the end.. the place that  Ifound was just... Lotteria.. the Korean fast food shop..

Bought a burger using my check card.. consumed.. and cleared my plate as in Korea.. you had to clear your own garbage after eating..

Left for gym.. and when I reached gym.. I took out my wallet to take out my gym membership card.. However.. I realized that it was gone.. My check card.. was GONE!!

I was kind of shocked but tried to keep my mind alive..

The first thing I thought of was to call my bank so as to stop the card from using.

Stopped then I relieved a sigh. I began to think where I could have possibly lost it.

It was the Lotteria! It was when I was clearing my plate I guess.. I think I threw my card that was enfolded by the receipt into the trash can... Damn..

I needed the card. I needed that to pay almost anything..

Got down to the nearby bank to renew.. and it took me one dollar.. After that.. I checked my card to see the balance left.. and there was only 360000won left... I know that I was spending quite a lot these days..but didn't know this much of money had gone... God....

I won't have enough money for all those trip... shirts..and clothes..

Like I had said ... i didn't gym but only bathed..

 I forgot to bring towel .. so I remained standing drying myself..

Got home when it was only 4.

When I reached.. mom welcomed me..

And here is what I had thought..to make today .. a special one..

On the way back home after bathing at the gym..

I wanted to make today.. sth different..

I thought... what can I do to.. make today.. a different one..

At first.. the only thought that came up was like.. should I go out and train football on my own ... or like go out and do something.... but what actually came across that hit me Eureka.. was when I thought that I should start doing something that I supposed to have been doing...

Being polite to mom and dad... and being a helpful brother...

What I had always planned but failed to do so...

I made a firm decision before entering the door..

Never... get angry.. or anything.. just listen... when she says sth.. that troubles.. or nags..

I tried to be nice.. Like asking her whether does she need me to buy anything outside or sth..

She asked me to act normal and don't have to try to be nice..

I sat down to cut my fingernails.. and later on.. she told me that the house was lacking of toilet tissue paper. I told her that I will go and buy one outside.. and she said we go out together to buy. Before leaving.. I reminded her with one thing that I will be going to do a volunteer activity tomorrow and meet friends for dinner after it.

Mom was angry..

She told me to stop going out.

She told me I was going out too frequently..

I had so much to rebut. and all. but I compressed down all the phrases that were about to erupt out of my mouth..

I stayed calm listening to her..

I just didn't say anything..

We went out.. in silence.. though mom spoke a few words like nagging me..

Got back home.. and I cut my toenails..and sat down on the bed watching TV..

Mom was slowly getting better..

And in the end.. we got okay..

When mom was nagging at me in the first place... the only thought that came up to me was that I really want to rebut her as soon as its 12am... only thought of fighting back.. and rebutting..

But after this event... I realized something.. I learned to communicate with mom like finally..

I need to wait for her to calm down first..

She is a short-tempered person. When she is angry with something.. she can't hold herself back. I should take a back step and wait for her to calm before saying anything.. I shouldn't be putting fire onto the oil when she's angry...

Why did I realize this so late...

Two people playing ping pong till now.. no wonder the game didn't end while both getting tiring... One has got to learn to stay back and wait for its turn..

Then on somehow...

The day ended...

Quite peaceful..

spent most of the time thinking what I should be doing..

The dinner tomorrow was cancelled as Eun Sun wasn't free.

So we decided to meet on Monday finally..

And set an appointment to meet the pastor and my teacher the two people whom I had met the other time again.. next Thursday..

Left with not much time... I'm just pondering.. what I can do.. to make this journey ... I mean.. to end this journey .. beautifully....

What can I do..?

Hope I can fill those time... spending with good people in a right manner..

but mom wouldn't allow either..

Hope I can go on a trip for a three four days but I do not have enough time for such..

I should think of the ways to end this journey..beautifully...

Goodnight...