The last day of flyer distributing job today.
Got up in the morning with another awkward silence again. This has become too normal. Dad and mom had a bit of quarrel the last night. Dad began cutting his finger nail when it was around 1 am and mom, being a conventional person she did not like it. There is this traidtion that if you cut your fignernail at night, you get the bad lucks. Having gone through a lot of bad things happening, she wanted to avoid any unlucky things at all means. They quarreled and today's sun rose.
Ate breakfast and read the sports news and waited for the time to get out. 12pm came so fast and had another lunch before I leave. I left home and reached the mall about 10 mins earlier. I bought two tickets for myself and my workmate to eat at the cafeteria beforehand so we can avoid the long queue at dinner time. It was already 1pm, when I got up to the shop and changed up and got ready for work. My workmate reached too and we separated to our own venue. Giving out the flyers, today had less people than yesterday. A lot of couples and family passing by, I should be someone that could spoil their mood as I interrupted when they were hugging or kissing to give out flyers. When people denied my flyers, I no longer feld disappointed. I began to see why they would and understand that there could be people like that. However, when I saw people tearing the flyers I gave and hear them saying that I am annoying, was still somewhat of hurtful.
When it was 5, it was already dinner time and my workmate came up to remind me. She would keep saying she is amazed. She just said, there was not many who actually approached her and ask questions about her. And when I gave her spoon and chopstick as I was taking mine, as we were queuing up for the food, she said I have great manners. But, those were really just habitual, not me being nice as a perosn.
There was one thought that came up to me. I began to realize how things had been. I would treat people in a way that I think is nice, and when someone misunderstands it as me treating the girl nice because I have different motive, it becomes a start of the person's misunderstanding. I guess that's what had happened to me for my first time. I would treat someone like how I would to anybody, not realizing it could cause a misunderstanding. The person misunderstands, and begin to think I have different motive on the person and that even leads to me differing in motives. This is totally my fault. Although there was no way I could know that was happening by that time as that was the very first, I shouldn't have been affected in my motive. It was the time when I learned what had happened to me, a year ago.
Work ended fast after the dinner break. It was around 8 and it was final end of the work. This work taught me lots of lessons. The true face of where I stand for now as a middle school graduate. As we ended work, we went to Smoothie king and she treated me a drink. We had a short conversation and we moved apart. As I was waiting for the bus, the sign said there is another 11 mins for the next bus to come so I decided to loiter around. After looking throug some of them I got back to the bus stop and reached home. That's for today.
Work finally ended and tomorrow will be another different day. Life, like an onion. The lesson so you learn in life is endless like peeling the coat of an onion. It is endless and limitless. Hope to learn from tomorrow and...
Good night...
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